Early morning musings

It's one in the morning and I just can't sleep.  I had a two hour nap after a very strange weekend and now I'm awake. 
But, graduation has come and gone for another group.  A year ago it was my time and let's just say the night didn't end well for me then, but this year was pretty good.  It's fun to celebrate others.  But a night out was well deserved for all involved.

Summer has finally showed up and I'm looking forward to the prospects ahead of me.  I'm going to make this a good time since next summer I will be onto a new adventure.  Not sure where I'll be but it won't be here.  So whatever happens I need to remember that though.

I'll be in my fort ...

Some days this being an adult kind of sucks.  I don't have enough money to take care of everything I need to get done.  Today, I was told my car may end up breaking down and it'll cost about a thousand dollars to make all of the repairs.  Yeah, like I've got that kind of money laying around.
I also wish I had someone in my life who could help me out some, but nope.  I'm far to independent to allow that.  Well, I've made my way this far.  I'll keep pushing through.  Someday I will get a break.

The Me Me Me Generation

I read a really interesting article today concerning my generation.  You know the lazy, narcissistic generation.  Well, some parts were pretty accurate, but others were so way off at least in my case.  Though, it was interesting to see how our culture has evolved and the reason has to do with our connection with technology.
My generation has a feeling of entitlement, but we are positive in the way we see things.  We aren't the rebellious type, but we don't see government or authority as anything that can help us.  We sit in debt because of those who came before. 
For those interested, the article was cover story of the Times on may 20.

Return to Me

It has been over a year and I can honestly say I am stronger than I have ever been.  My last post was made in a very dark place.  I was broken last year.  I was deep in a depression that almost took my life.  But, because of the support I finally let help me, I was able to bring myself up.  Though, some days I find myself slipping, I am able to pull myself back together.
By the end of last year, I was able to finish my degree and begin focusing on my future.
The start of this year saw me finding myself alone.  I discovered the true nature of "friends" and from there I learned about me.  I learned what it's like being alone and for the first time it didn't scare me. I was liberated by the fact I didn't have to constantly walk on egg shells.  Some days I look back on how things were and I miss the times we had, but I'm far more stronger than they are and I won't let them pull me down again.
I've also decided that my job is not necessarily my only focus.  Though, I've taken on more responsibilities, I've been giving myself time every day for me.
So, this year has really been a return to me.  I have lost 10 pounds already and my portfolio looks really good.

I will continue to be okay!  Now just to figure out what to do on here.  At some point I'll figure out a theme.