Day 3

January 1, 2012

2:30 PM
Chicken Noodle Soup

4:30 PM
McDonald's
Taco Bell
Milk

5:30 PM
McDonald's
Taco Bell

I just want to be okay for once.

So, after last night. I woke with a hangover and a sense of regret for my actions last night. I ended up texting this guy I really like and telling him that I love him, but when he flirts with other girls and ignores me it feels like there is a knife going into my heart. I know I shouldn't put this on him especially after everything he's been through. But, it hurt so bad last night and I was drunk and stupid and finally had enough.

I texted him today and he didn't have a clue what I was talking about. Thank god!!! But, now he doesn't have a clue as to exactly how I feel about him.

There is just no easy way to do this. Relationships suck and neither of us needs to be hurt anymore. Someday, we may get to a point where this will be okay for us, but until then I have to endure the pain and just keep going.

I need to focus on me anyways. I'm important and I deserve to be happy.