365 Days of Happiness - Day 86

March 27

First off, let me thank everyone who gave me reassurance and critiques on my resume and everything yesterday.  I appreciate it greatly.

Now let me talk about today and the fun that was had.  I was able to spend the day shopping for gifts, baking, and going out with my boyfriend's family to celebrate his dad's birthday.  Throughout the day there were mixed feelings of excitement and happiness, as well as moments of sadness though.

It has been four and a half years since I've lost my dad and I still miss him and all the things that we are missing out on.  So, as I looked at gifts for my boyfriend's dad, I thought of my own and what I would have been getting him for his birthday.  As my boyfriend and I baked his cake, I thought of the cakes I made my dad.

It was a day of comparison, and a bit of contrast.  My dad would have rather spent his day at home, watching movies, my boyfriend's family went out for bingo and drinks.  It was fun to do something different and also to celebrate someone's dad.

I'm glad they let me tag along and celebrate.

I'll always think about the moments that we're missing together, I will be thankful for the time we did have and the moments I can look back on.  I love you dad and I'll miss you always!

~Norma Jean